I know I disappeared right after launching my first blog, but I had some internal struggles about taking the next steps with this blog and I put what I like to call road blocks in front of myself, but I will blog more about that later. Right now I’m dealing with some disappointment in my life, and it’s not a huge earth shattering disappointment, just something I had a really good feeling on and it didn’t pan out. So insert here raw emotions. Going back a few weeks ago I was recently at a event and I listened to a lady talk about herself and how she came to appreciate herself and that her true authentic self was raw and yes there would be tears. This really resonated with me because being an empath or a sensitive person there is always tears to be shed, emotions to be had, something that comes to the surface in our lives. This is one of my struggles of showing the tearing up emotional side at work, and many others of you may have been here. You get news or disappointment and your first reaction is your RAW emotions, the real you. So is it ok to let that go? Or should you bottle it up for later? Being in a corporate job this can be so tough because not everyone is at the same level mentally or emotionally. There will be people that will talk about how you got emotional at work and cried and make you look like you are weak because of that. But you know what, your not! You are just being you, your authentic self, even if it does come with some emotions and some tears at work. We are all humans at the end of the day and you should pride yourself on knowing that you stayed true to yourself and didn’t stray from that. Give yourself some credit for that. Don’t cut yourself short and go to the negative self talk that we all do in our heads. We are all people capable of doing such great things just given the chance and allowing ourselves that. And you know what, just because you were disappointed with something doesn’t mean it’s the end of world. I like the saying when one door shuts another one opens. Don’t dwell on the disappointment. Yes you can get emotional and you can cry because it’s natural for your body to release and that’s what your body is prepping you for, releasing and moving on. Honor that moment.

So how did I handle my situation? Well I was given my disappointment with two others in the room, kept telling myself, don’t cry, this moment doesn’t defy my life, this is just a door closing. Did I want to bawl my eyes out? Well yes, but I dug down deep and pulled through that short 10 to 15 minutes and came back to my desk and breathed and got teary eyed again. For me I find that when I’m given the news, I need to sit on it and let the emotions pass and then ask myself the questions of what I need to do or where do I go from here. Then I can take this and grow from it, learn and heal, and wait for the next door to open in which I will walk through as my authentic self.

Have a wonderful day everyone and remember to live your soul.