Why is it in a single moment, things can shift and move you into a different reality or way of thinking? Like I’m talking HUGE shifts, ones that you move on from and realize that you are completely different, you can no longer walk the path you were walking before, it’s not in you to do this.

These moments can be so fleeting, yet so powerful. Lately I have experienced that twice in the last six or so months. My first moment was a few months ago when I was laying and bed, relaxing before going to sleep. And it hit me like such a lighting bolt, that I can no longer play small anymore. I’ve been doing this for most of my life, not really living up to my potential as I have always known I could do much more, that I am capable of doing more. I know this in my heart and in gut. It was like a commitment to myself that from here on out, there was no more playing small, no more hiding behind something as an excuse. After that I felt like I had huge leaps in growth, but of course life happens and there was also set backs as there always will be. But still I have to take that pride in the large leaps of growth.

The second shift was just about a week ago, when I was relaxing and I felt like it was a huge shift. I felt like I was everything and I was nothing at the same time. Feeling connected to everything on this beautiful earth and in a zone like state where I felt disconnected as well. It was such a strange feeling and I really felt disconnected from my body so I could experience everything and nothing and they are both beautiful things. We lose the beauty in life, we lose that focus of how everything small thing can hold so much beauty if you just stop and look and pay attention to what is around you. Nature holds so much beauty and really can teach you so many things, if you just slow down and perceive, take it all in.

Over the last few years I’ve really grown more connected to nature and all of the signs it give us. Like the other day, I noticed that the barn cats are starting to get their winter coats, a sign that fall is coming up quickly. The trees have starting in what I like to call their highlights, where just the tips of the leaves on some branches are starting to turn color. The weather is starting to change from the warmth to cooler nights and mornings, a sure sign that we are shifting into fall. A season where we can start slowing down from the bustle of summer and start to unwind into fall before we go into the rest phase of winter. Fall truly is a wonderful season to let go of things, and to sit back are reap in your harvest of rewards. Another shift in perception.

As always, love and positive vibes and don’t forget to live from your soul.

In my area lately the weather has been SO hot and dry. Last night it finally cooled off to where I can shut of the air conditioning and open up the windows. This is one of my favorite things to do after a long run of hot weather. Nothing fills my soul more than having the windows open and a nice breeze going through the house. I feel like this really clears my house of negative energies and make the house feel lighter. This also feeds my soul because of the house feeling lighter and the beautiful temperatures.

I have noticed a lot lately that my emotions run from being happy to being annoyed with everything lately. I listened to a podcast yesterday and it really addressed how others are feeling during the pandemic and that they really have been feeling the same way about their emotions being all over the place and really having more time to think about things. I also noticed that I tend to over think a lot of things and do the negative self talk, which doesn’t help either. I seem to put a lot of pressure on myself of what I should be doing during my days and really beat myself up if I don’t do them. This also has been happening with my spiritual work. Like I know I should be doing it and am hard on myself when I don’t do it. It is really hard to find the balance these days with so much uncertainty. I noticed I seem to put a lot of emphasis on what I find wrong or what I’m not doing instead of looking towards the beauty in life and enjoying them.

Lately I’m trying to move a lot of the negativeness and my fears and just handing it off to the universe. There are so many things that are out of my control right now and by passing my fears off to the universe I can get rid of that heaviness and feel lighter and focus more on the beauty, joy and happiness that is happening in life. Honestly this isn’t an easy thing to do and I’m not living joy 24/7, but the biggest thing is that I’m trying to do this.

So if you are also feeling the same way I have been lately with the fears and negativity open the windows to your house, and your soul. Try shifting your focus from the negativity and find something positive and really feel that moment and enjoy it . Take the time for yourself! We are all so hard on ourselves during this time, we really need to take a step back and realize it when we start going down that path and do something that gives us joy. Be kind to yourself when your not having the day you expected when you woke up, these will happen, and give yourself a little credit because we really are going through a lot of the same emotions. And remember to live your soul!

Wow, what a crazy last couple of months it’s been for us all. Who would have thought that our society would end up here in this unknown territory of our everyday lives. I know even before this virus decided to change our ways of living as we know it right now, I was putting blocks in front of myself. These were like excuses I was telling myself that I couldn’t do this or couldn’t do that because of this reason or that. I really struggled with that after I started this blog. I do have a TON of ideas that I can write about, but always would find a reason to not to. A year ago in the spring I went to a women’s retreat in which I realized that I do this to myself ALL THE TIME. This actually was a huge revelation realizing this, and had formulated goals of things I wanted to do, some of them I accomplished, some are still being worked on, but however I felt like I started healing and moving past the putting blocks in my path.

Now in our current situation, it really has reared it’s ugly head again. I feel like I do this quite frequently and there are days where I’m completely fine and other days, where out of nowhere, there it is again. I can’t do this because I haven’t done that and so forth and some days it feel like it’s an endless list. I have found that I have been over committing myself in too many areas of my life and need to scale back as well. But one thing that remained consistent is that I still want to do this blog and share my experiences, but I really have to stop making the excuse that ‘I can’t’ and change it to ‘I can’. A work still in progress at the moment.

Fast forward to current day situation and my feelings I’ve gone through during this pandemic. So I have been working from home for almost two months now. The first week, I was like, this is kind of nice, I can do this, to the next week of oh my gosh, I can’t do this this totally sucks. I’m not going to lie that the last two months have been a TOTAL roller coaster of emotions. This time has been really hard to be able to work, manage the kids and make sure they are doing their school work online and meeting their needs along with trying to keep sane when I really need to get something done with work right away and they are being all loud and in the background while my husband is working outside. But then there are also days where I have really connected with my kids and husband and we have good days. One thing I really have learned throughout this experience is that it’s ok to not be ok, and to have compassion for myself during those rough days. It was interesting because I felt like in the beginning of all of this I needed to make changes in my life because here we were given this time to be able to work on ourselves and make changes if we wanted. I felt like I needed to learn something from this time of being at home and that it should be some huge like, I really had this big epiphany about my life. Yeah well, it doesn’t work like that all the time. But in all of this I have learned that we all needed a break from our fast paced lives and this virus has made us do that. And I’ve learned that everyday isn’t going to be a awesome day and I have days of depression and anxiety, but I’ve learned that I have to have compassion in those days and give myself a break and not to do the negative self talk in my head. I’ve also learned that I need to give compassion to my family as well, because we are all going through this and they have their bad days as well and just give them a little slack when they are having their off day.

Typically I would end this saying have a wonderful day, but right now, life is hard, so I’m going to say, have a day, whatever kind of day that might be and hopefully you find a little light in it if it is a rough day. But my saying ‘live your soul’ here still rings true because of no matter where you are at you ARE living your soul. Love and positive vibes.

I know I disappeared right after launching my first blog, but I had some internal struggles about taking the next steps with this blog and I put what I like to call road blocks in front of myself, but I will blog more about that later. Right now I’m dealing with some disappointment in my life, and it’s not a huge earth shattering disappointment, just something I had a really good feeling on and it didn’t pan out. So insert here raw emotions. Going back a few weeks ago I was recently at a event and I listened to a lady talk about herself and how she came to appreciate herself and that her true authentic self was raw and yes there would be tears. This really resonated with me because being an empath or a sensitive person there is always tears to be shed, emotions to be had, something that comes to the surface in our lives. This is one of my struggles of showing the tearing up emotional side at work, and many others of you may have been here. You get news or disappointment and your first reaction is your RAW emotions, the real you. So is it ok to let that go? Or should you bottle it up for later? Being in a corporate job this can be so tough because not everyone is at the same level mentally or emotionally. There will be people that will talk about how you got emotional at work and cried and make you look like you are weak because of that. But you know what, your not! You are just being you, your authentic self, even if it does come with some emotions and some tears at work. We are all humans at the end of the day and you should pride yourself on knowing that you stayed true to yourself and didn’t stray from that. Give yourself some credit for that. Don’t cut yourself short and go to the negative self talk that we all do in our heads. We are all people capable of doing such great things just given the chance and allowing ourselves that. And you know what, just because you were disappointed with something doesn’t mean it’s the end of world. I like the saying when one door shuts another one opens. Don’t dwell on the disappointment. Yes you can get emotional and you can cry because it’s natural for your body to release and that’s what your body is prepping you for, releasing and moving on. Honor that moment.

So how did I handle my situation? Well I was given my disappointment with two others in the room, kept telling myself, don’t cry, this moment doesn’t defy my life, this is just a door closing. Did I want to bawl my eyes out? Well yes, but I dug down deep and pulled through that short 10 to 15 minutes and came back to my desk and breathed and got teary eyed again. For me I find that when I’m given the news, I need to sit on it and let the emotions pass and then ask myself the questions of what I need to do or where do I go from here. Then I can take this and grow from it, learn and heal, and wait for the next door to open in which I will walk through as my authentic self.

Have a wonderful day everyone and remember to live your soul.

Hello beautiful people! I want to start this out as an introduction to me and why I chose to start a blog. At this point in my life right now I’m 44 years old and I have 2 beautiful girls ages 10 and 8 and live with my husband on our small farm. I work full time and had this urge of wanting to do more, to share more, to help people in my life. I recently became an ambassador to a amazing local non-profit, Self Love Beauty, in order to help and encourage others in our journey of life, but that is only one thing I want to do to help. I also hope by starting this blog I can reach others in their life journey who are feeling stuck in their lives of are dealing with depression, anxiety or just want to learn more or branch out in their lives.

Since I was young I always just felt empty, just going through the motions of life, not wanting or interested in doing more than that. I really beat myself up thinking I was nothing or worthless and who would take interest in what I had to say or what I did. It made for an empty life and there were times suicide would be at the back of my mind. It wasn’t until I was in my 30’s when my husband made me aware I wasn’t ok, it wasn’t normal to be irritated with everyone to push people away, to be on the couch most days and not accomplish anything, because honestly I didn’t want to. That was my sort of wake up call to life, to realize, you know what, it’s ok, it’s not a bad thing to have depression. This is just a ‘thing’ placed on my journey to learn from and grow with. And believe me I’m constantly learning! Even today I find myself dealing with bouts of not being ok or not even wanting to. I notice more now in the last few years that I get anxiety even more, that at times even the TV being on really bothers me.

So this brings me to the other aspect that I want to incorporate into this blog, which is the metaphysical/spirtual side of things. I LOVE all of this from meditation, to crystals, to essential oils, all the way up to getting the beautiful and loving signs from the higher spirit, this is one of my passions. I will not go into what you yourself consider the higher spirit as I believe that is your choice in believing what feels right for you. I will not tell you what to believe in because that is part of your journey of your life and you should believe in what call or resonates with you. I will however talk about what resonates with me and maybe just touching on these facts will give you that feeling of awareness and recognition of things in your life.

My hopes in this blog is you lift you in life, to really speak to your soul, for you to read these entries and to possibly take something away from it to either realize that you are not alone in this journey in life or to have an aha moment that that lifts you up. I want to hear your comments or life experiences or simply the comment of thank you, I needed to hear this in my life right now. The path that we are all on if life varies so much from person to person and there are times where we really feel alone as the world can be cold and harsh. However there are people out there who are willing to reach out and help, to show you that life can be beautiful and that your are not alone in all of this.

Like I said I would love to hear your comments, ideas or thoughts below. Open up the discussion to what you feel drawn to share, but please keep it on a positive note. My goal is to help people and I don’t believe in bringing others down or saying negative things to them as you have no idea what they are going through in their journeys.

Have a wonderful day and remember to live your soul.